Speaking Truth

Happy New Year Sweet Friends! 🎉

Welcome to 2025!

Four weeks ago, I started Hypnotherapy sessions with Gloria…one of my very best friends and a clinical hypnotherapist.

This is how the internet defines Hypnotherapy:

Hypnotherapy is a therapeutic technique that uses hypnosis to help individuals achieve a heightened state of focus and relaxation, often referred to as a trance. In this state, the subconscious mind becomes more accessible, allowing individuals to explore deep-seated thoughts, emotions, and behaviors.

I found my way to sessions with Gloria through meditation. I have been struggling to define ‘what I want?’ I know that does not sound like a great big deal… but to me… IT IS!

I am an awesome manifestor and always know what it is that I want next. I have prided myself for years on how clearly and concisely I am able to focus upon my next desire.

Each morning I sit in a short 10 min. guided meditation that asks me what I want to create in my experience this month. I normally love that question and allow my imagination to run wild… dreaming up new desires, inspired actions and goals to move toward. In the early Fall, something shifted within me and I began to experience a deep pain at the back of my heart, coupled with very anxious feelings whenever I would settle upon something that I wanted to manifest. I would begin to stress out that I could not or should not have it!

What in the ever-loving-hell! This meditation was making me feel worse, not better! It was so intense one morning four weeks ago… that I was in tears as I headed into my Kryia (another type of meditation). I sat on my yoga mat and asked for help. “Please show me a path through this.” Ten minutes into my rhythmic breath patterns… Gloria’s smiling face appeared, bigger than life, right in front of my face! I messaged her as soon as I finished & began my first hypnotherapy session the next day.

One of the first things she said to me was… “What do you want? It is very helpful in hypnotherapy to be focused on one sentence that sums up what it is that you want.”

I teared up and dramatically blurted out “I want to do what I want, when I want, with whom I want, anytime I want!”

Gloria laughed and said “Ok… that is a good start.”

She then helped me to refine that raw blurt out into:

“I allow freedom in every moment.”

It turns out that the pain in the back of my heart is… me feeling trapped, a lack of freedom, never ending responsibility, and scared to disappoint people if I am not taking care of them.

At first, I was a little embarrassed that I was feeling this way… I have a damn good and exciting life… who am I to get all dramatic and feel Un-Free?

I have since come to realize that these kinds of thoughts seem to be very common for many women as we settle into menopause and perimenopause.

Our hormones change so that we are less likely to want to take care of everyone and everything and are more likely to want to move towards our own creative pursuits. This change can be scary… as it requires us to redefine our roles & relationships and take a hard look at ‘what WE want’ in this new phase of life.

My five Hypnotherapy sessions revealed other previously unknown gems, that were buried deep within my subconscious mind… but the most precious thing  that came from my sessions with Gloria was that beautiful phrase “I allow freedom in every moment!” I say it over and over again everyday whenever the back of my heart tightens or I feel any guilt around redefining my new wants! It helps me to reprogram my mind and speak my truth!

At the beginning of every New Year I pick a phrase or word that I would like to embody throughout the upcoming 12 months. I write it down on a piece of paper, take it outside and burn it on New Year’s Eve… I let the smoke rise up and inform the universe of my intentions!

My sweet heart and my dear friend helped me to find this year’s phrase!

What does your heart desire in 2025?